Showing posts with label I Minus. Show all posts
Showing posts with label I Minus. Show all posts

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Jesus before Pilate ~ Teach me to pray

Ah man…
Listen to this…
Hear the questions...note the type of questions...do they foster conversation or are they closed ~ yes or no answers...questions asked with an agenda...questions asked with only ONE acceptable answer expected by the interrogator...

Pilate said to Jesus,
"Are you the King of the Jews?" 


Jesus answered, 


"Do you say this on your own
or have others told you about me
?" 


Pilate answered, "I am not a Jew, am I?
Your own nation and the chief priests handed you over to me.
What have you done?"


Jesus answered, 


"My kingdom does not belong to this world.
If my kingdom did belong to this world,
my attendants would be fighting
to keep me from being handed over to the Jews.
But as it is, my kingdom is not here
." 


So Pilate said to him, "Then you are a king?" 


Jesus answered,


 "You say I am a king.
For this I was born 
and for this I came into the world,
to testify to the truth
.
Everyone who belongs to the truth listens to my voice
."

~ John 18: 33-37

All right now.  Check this out! Again, the questions…yeah, one question is actually a demand...

The interrogators brought an agenda.

I struggle to find ‘prayer’ here.  Jesus, sadly to me says, “If I question, you will not respond.”

They said, 
"If you are the Messiah, tell us," 
but he replied to them, 
"If I tell you, you will not believe.
  
If I question, you will not respond.”
~ Luke 22:  67 - 68


Ah man…

I cry.

I pray I will pray free of any agenda always.

I pray Jesus will never have to say to me, “If I question, you will not respond.”

I pray I will invite others to pray with me free of an agenda always.

I pray I will hear another's prayer always.

I pray I will live God is Love always. 

I pray I will feel God's Love through another person always. 

I pray (my soul) will leap in (my) womb, and be filled with the Holy Spirit when I am greeted by another always.

I pray (others' souls) will leap in (their) wombs, and be filled with the Holy Spirit when I greet them always.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Mark 10: 35-38 presents the Sons of Zebedee ~ in my heart, "Can I sit at your right hand?"

I ask myself the same question Jesus asked the law Scholar, "How do you read it?"  We prayed with that earlier ~ Teach me to pray ~ Encouragement before we share Exodus and the Canaanite Woman.  Remember that earlier post?


Scripture is read to me everyday.  I read Scripture everyday.  

I hear Scripture differently everyday because I am a different person everyday.

       Somedays I feel inexplicably happy.
       Somedays I feel melancholy.
       Somedays i feel boisterous.
       Somedays I feel quiet.
       Somedays I feel content.
       Somedays I feel mad as hell.
       Somedays I feel hurt.
       Somedays I feel I've hurt another.






I must remember Scripture was written in a different time.
I must remember those hearing Scripture in those different times had a very different world view:


Then James and John, the sons of Zebedee, came to him and said to him, 
"Teacher, we want you to do for us whatever we ask of you."

He replied, 
"What do you wish (me) to do for you?"

They answered him,
 "Grant that in your glory we may sit one at your right and the other at your left."

Jesus said to them, 
"You do not know what you are asking.
~ Mark 10: 35-38



We must remember the folks around God while The Word Was Made Flesh did not have an appreciation...an understanding...a concept... for being in Heaven.  It was not part of their tradition.  "In your glory" RIGHT NOW...IN THIS TIME...WHILE YOU ARE FLESH...very likely means when you're sitting on the throne of our nation as king.


Today, I do have an appreciation for being in Heaven.  It is part of my tradition.  Since I get it, if you will, I casually read Mark as "In your glory in Pure Love in Heaven with God and all the saints."  I can easily chuckle at James' and John's naivete,  "You silly boys..."  and leave the Scripture alone.




BUT, to bring it home...to make it relevant to me NOW...to hear a pertinent lesson...



What are James and John actually asking?  How ‘bout…

“Jesus, when you become King...when you drive out the Romans with the armies you raise and train...Can I be, say...you’re Secretary of State or your Prime Minister.”


"Jesus, when you become supreme priest...when you really put the Sanhedrin and it's Scribes...the Pharisees and the Sadducees in their place...Can I be, say...on the Supreme Court?"


Concrete   measurable   places   of   honor.

Everyone   will  know   I   am   important.


Ah man.  Now this Scriptural Passage presents a lesson to me today.  Because I do this today.  I bring an agenda to the table when I am with someone.  It is human nature.  It is exercising Free Will.  It is extremely human.  I don’t believe we can help it;  BUT, we can be aware of it. But, we can make an adjustment to our attitude.  Like Jesus did with the Canaanite Woman.

Jesus challenges us to be aware of it, “You don’t know what you’re asking.”

Here’s a parable:

I plan to join the new organization at my church called, THE BEST SERVICE and SOCIAL ORGANIZATION EVER ~ BSSOE.  EVERYONE who is ANYONE at my church is is signing up with BSSOE.  I can make a ton of contacts for work.  And, I will be invited to the best parties.  And, I will be well on my way to being elected to the Church Council.

However, I missed the whole meaning of the word "SERVICE" in the title.  It means volunteering a lot of time serving at a soup kitchen.  It means volunteering a lot of time stuffing envelops.  It means going to a lot of meetings.  It means answering a call to drive another member to a doctor’s appointment.  It means…





Pray with me.







What do you think?  What is your take?  How do you apply this Scripture Passage to your life?  



Jesus tells the  Zebedee boys   like   it   is:

“Can you drink the cup that I drink or 
be baptized with the baptism with which I am baptized?"






Jesus tells me   like   it   is:




NOT ONE MEMBER became my client.
I went to two parties:  one played music i didn't like all night and 
the other served food I didn't like.
I did not get elected to the Church Council.


I get called every month to serve at the soup kitchen.  UGH...every month!
I had to bring that guy to his doctor's appointment.  I hope I don't catch what he's got.
That paper cut still hasn't healed.
Those meetings are scheduled during CSI: Miami.  I haven't seen one episode in months.






Here's a question: Is there an advantage, then, knowing we have the reality of Heaven?


Heaven is a given, for me.  Remember our earlier prayer in The Garden?  
God comes to us asking, "Where are you?" Even knowing what we did.  


Jesus waits for us at the tomb asking us by name, 
"Mary, who are you looking for?"  
Even after we humiliated him, denied knowing him, scourged him, nailed him to a tree.


My challenge to knowing the reality of Heaven is I can chuckle at others naive interactions to Jesus and leave it at that.  I can sail through Scripture without listening to my heart...without reading Scripture with God is Love...without listening to Scripture with Emmanuel.


So, I believe another attitude affecting how I read...listen...to Scripture is in the questions, "Do I live to get into Heaven?", and, "Am I accepting Jesus' challenge, 'The Kingdom of Heaven is at hand...within you...right now? in other words, "Do I live to bring Heaven at hand...within me and you...right now?", "Am I living Emmanuel ~ God Is With Us, or I will be with God after I am dead?".








As I shared in an earlier post, I wear an I Minus knotted and tied around my left wrist.  One of those knots symbolizes Chastity, if you will:  I pray I will greet another agenda free.  Does that vow work for me?  Ah man...


Wednesday, September 16, 2009

The Triumph of the Cross ~ In my life

We celebrated the Triumph of the Cross Feast earlier this week. Let's talk about the amazing experience we all share from...in...through the Cross. I want to explore this Tree of Knowledge, if you will, and the one in the Garden.

A prelude to the next journal entry.


Ah man...The Truimph of the Cross…

Texas Jeweler James Avery forged a pendant: the I Minus (a cross meaning "Others Come First, I Minus). My Aunt gave me one at my confirmation 34 years ago. I still wear it…

I tied three knots in a leather strap long enough to wrap my wrist three times. From there the I Minus hangs.

One knot is my Integrity Prayer: “Listen to the Word of God always. Feel the Word of God in my Heart. Speak the Word of God in my actions.”

Another knot is my Chastity Prayer: “Interact with another free of agenda. Interact with another as an expression of God’s Love. Greet another like Elizabeth hailed Mary. Hail another like Mary greeted Elizabeth.”

Another knot is my Poverty Prayer: “ God is everything. Everything is before me. My desire is God’s Love.”

One wrist wrap is God ~ the Altar.

One wrist wrap is the Word Incarnate ~ the Tabernacle.

One wrist wrap is The Holy Spirit ~ the Transubstantiation.

Be with me…

I breathe and my heart sighs...